As a teenagers can you feel the 'married' aura. Yes you say you do? The moment when your guy say "When we can get engage?" Duh that was 'experiencing moments of ecstasy' kot. But...I just remembered about something yang cukup bullshit. He very loves me. But talked about his mom oh damn."I nak minta maaf, I tak mungkin akan married with anyone including you because I nak jaga my mum." His sentence just killing me softly. Stab my feeling. Nothing to say. Just tears. Yes tears. Fucking tears.
Saya nak tanya awak. Pernah tak awak sayang seseorang tu sangat sangat sampai awak nak sangat build life dengan dia? Yes you're. Hope? What's up with hope? Hope is hurt, worst, asshole. Can't you feel it? Setelah orang tu bagi awak hope about he wanna build life with you, married with you, sharing moment with you then suddenly he/she change all over. For me, I love him as he do, did and done. Ada jodoh just keep moving. Thanks to my beloved bff. Always be my side when I'm down about this shit.
Anyway I love you, Shafiq.
